Perfect Love Through Infant Eyes

God so Loved the World that God Gave

How is it that a loving God would create me with feelings I never asked for, then tell me those same feelings are sinful? Then deny me God’s love and damn me to an eternity in hell unless I change them? I have tried to reconcile those questions for years. But I can’t. I cannot reconcile myself to believe God is in the business of making a joke out of something He painstakingly created with such reverence.

If that is the definition of a loving God, then that is not a God I want in my life.

I keep coming back to the same sentence which is the theme of my 2025 Christmas card:

“God so loved the world that God gave…”

I’ve heard it a thousand times.

I’ve quoted it.

I’ve watched people weaponize it.

I’ve watched others soften it into something polite and distant—like it’s only meant for stained glass and Christmas carols.

But this year, I wrote it the way I actually live it now: as a beginning, not a slogan.

Because for a long time, I believed

• God gave… conditions.

• God gave… tests.

• God gave… a vers…